soulping | Robin's Shadow

....

It hurts.

[The Shadow shifts, sitting up, looking haggard and worn out, staring at them.]

Always being the last. It's not just losing everyone, but I'm also the only one to remember them. If I left though, who would remember me? It's like a dream. It seems so real, but when you wake up, it's all gone.

And then I want to walk away because at least...at least the void will always be there. It's a part of me that can never be taken away.

But then...Reyson called me out on how I couldn't see anyone around me. I looked and I saw you and started to see other people and things started to feel real again, just a little bit.

Then, despite how much other people buy into my persona, you kept digging and questioned it and I....I felt real. Wasn't just a silly little alien, but someone who...

Mattered? But I'm never predictable.

No, you're not. It's not all your fault, I know I fucked up, I just...I don't know where.

I want to be better. I want to make real friends. I want enough reasons that I'll never want to walk away. I want to remember why it was always worth it to keep trying.

[Bringing up their hands he brushes her cheek.]

...You want me to tell you?

...yes.

I want to be a friend who can make you happy.

[Feelings, sadness, god he's trying so hard not to despair. He knows these feelings.]

You don't trust yourself.

...

I won't try to make you. [...] Fuck these games.

[Softly.] She doesn't need to trust me. I want what she wants.

[Looking over at the Shadow.]

...I don't. I know I'm capable, I know I can DO things, but for the things that matter, I'm always lost.

I don't want to be hurt again. I want to run away.

But there is at least someone who wants me here. [She squeezes Zelos' hand.] And right now, I want to stay with him more.

[She nods and then fades away.]

[Zelos's Cruxis Crystal drops to the ground and rolls to his feet. He looks at it. Couldn't he just leave it here... Tightening his grip on Roxy's hand slightly he reaches down and picks it up before looking at her.]

This is really what you want? For certain?