soulping | Robin's Shadow

[After a moment his wings disappear and he reaches up to his keycrest, removing his Cruxis Crystal. This is incredibly stupid, but he does want to get out of here with Roxy in one piece.

Both physically and mentally.

He holds it out to her.]

[She turns to him.]

And how do I know you're not just going to demand it back after the game?

.........I swear I won't by Seles. Good enough?

Edited 2014-02-12 06:40 (UTC)

No.

You like to lie and you've burned me before.

And you said it's dangerous. So why would you let me keep it?

Because I want to take you home in one piece. If this is what it takes well I did say I'd come for you. [...] You want me to trust you. This is me trusting you. With my sister. With my world. With my life. With this sad, dangerous object that's my only thing left of Tethe'alla.

If you really can't trust me you should be able to take away my ability to ask for it back with your void ability. Should be easy, right?

No.

A Rogue of Void steals for others.

I can't steal for myself.

At least not normally.

[The tentacles are reaching forward.] But when outside influences have come into play, the roles can be changed.

[Why did it have to be tentacles, whyyyyy]

[...] If Nyssa's game isn't enough do it because I want you to. ...Because we're friends.

[Oh god he is going to die. NOT. HAVING TO TALK ABOUT FRIENDSHIP....]

Nyssa merely gave me a voice.

You're deluded if you think we don't really feel this way.

We told you, didn't we?

[And hello, that's a tentacles around the neck.]

That's not what I meant. I set myself up to care too deeply about you. [Does he even have to say that? Hadn't it been so clear? Being so open, telling her secrets, always staying so close?] Even when I walk away I only pretend to. Prodding your friends behind your back to help you, trying to solve problems before they can get to you.

If you only steal for others and everything I do is to be close to you one way or another, this should be a no brainer.

In the end this is just a game. Even if you went out to the void you'd be pulled back after the game ends. Because this is Nyssa's world. Or- you can make a change that lasts past the game. That's the point, isn't it? To get something for yourself?

You're not very good at looking at how people might take things. What did you think walking away accomplished? She had to talk herself into still going to you.

She kept thinking she shouldn't bother you. If you don't trust her, did she really deserve to bother you? She had to tell herself repeatedly that you told her it was okay. She was so scared, she needed something. So she kept telling herself the entire time, forcing out the words, trying not to talk in endless circles.

[The tentacle tightens painfully for a few moments before loosening again. But the voices are whispering that maybe it shouldn't have, wouldn't that have been nice?] Whatever lesson you were trying to teach was lost because she thought she was wrong again. That she still couldn't understand. That her words were still so unclear you took it as manipulation when she was begging for help.

Even when you gave her the locket, it only partially healed the damage you caused. What's to say you won't do it again? Even if you're trying to solve her problems, what's the point if you cause more?

Do you know how much it hurt to push away that desire. How much she tried to not let the fear get to her. Convince herself that duty would be enough when she KNOWS it wouldn't?!

If she accepts her desire, that'll be enough. She'll walk, sooner or later. Something will make those pieces fall and she'll do what she wants to do.

[Sheathing his sword.]

Everyone gets hurt. I will hurt her again. Do you think you're really one to talk? Hell is a two-way street.

[Untying his sword he drops it along with the knife and walks over to place a hand on tied up Roxy's shoulder if he can, careful of the ropes.]

[Tentacle isn't moving from his neck.]

Yes, it is. But she's used to taking responsibility for everything in her life. She can recognize your flaws, but when it comes to ourselves, we can only blame ourselves when it goes wrong.

We're the ones who don't know people. The ones who grew up around strange aliens. If something is wrong in a relationship, it's our fault.

If you leave, it's because she fucked up.

I'm the part that knows that's not true. That Hell is a two way street. But that scares her and she hopes if it's her fault, she could fix it. But that's not so easy when you're doing the things you tell her not to do.

No it's not. [...] But I'm human too. We're both trying to improve. Does it make you feel better doing the things I do?

[She's seen his dreams. This is no different.]

It's that or get angry. And she doesn't want to be angry at you.

That's why I am.

I'd believe that if you were any better at it. [His hand tightens on Roxy's shoulder.] You want her to accept you. But you're not exactly giving her any credit here.

Because she won't LISTEN. [Tentacle starting to tighten around his neck.] She knows she'll only be hurt again, but she wont' ADMIT IT.

[Oh well that's not neighborly. Or good for his health. He winces.]

So... She's not- going fast enough for you. Is that it? [Yes, gonna be a douchebag, turn this right around on her. Smart life choices.] What's so scary about being hurt!

She WON'T listen. She can't progress in something she won't FACE.

And it's not scary, it just hurts and it's tiring and it's not FAIR.

Being the last three times is enough!

She can't. But that's not what she's doing. She tried to ask me for help. And you're leaving out half the story here-- what about all the good things.

Just make it more painful when it all goes away.

So none of those are worth it all to you? Not one single thing?

She keeps trying to tell herself it is.

But I don't think it is. Not four times over.

...I can't agree with that. I've seen her happy. What's the point in living if you never have experiences like that. Bad or not, you can't say it outweighs the good.

We'd be happy in the void.

We told you that before.

Bullshit. You can't be happy if you're taking all your feelings away. It's having the full range that provides perspective in the first place. Laughter and crying go hand in hand. You say you're tired of it, but you're just afraid to grasp happiness. And she's afraid to admit to sadness. Weren't you the one who told me not everything had to be an extreme.

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