Don't apologize. We chose to come in here in order to help you. I'm sure we still would have, even if we knew something like this would happen. Because we want to help you.
Well, you seemed to be ignoring him, telling him to shut up and that you didn't want to listen to him.
While he could benefit from being a liiiiittle nicer about things, maybe you can try to not completely shut him out. Listen to him, even if it's just a little bit. But be firm with him and don't let him push you around if he tries to do that! Because I know you probably don't want him to be the biggest part of you, either.
Now that he seems a little winded down, maybe you can work on that.
I think there's a bit to work on, at least. He wouldn't be in your heart if he wasn't a part of it. And, our hearts aren't always filled with just good things; everybody feels the sort of things you feel, too, and maybe hate certain parts of ourselves. It's not something that this part of you wants, which is understandable. But I think ... what we feel in our hearts, what we really feel in our hearts, no matter what circumstance crops up that might make us repress some of those feelings or make us convince ourselves to lie to ourselves about them, is pretty right.
Yeah! And in the end, your choice of not only deciding that sort of thing, but which you try to shape yourself into in a way that doesn't end up hurting yourself like this, is the most important thing.
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[His eyes widen as he turns his head, catching a glimpse of the shadow that stares back at him with bitter, mournful eyes--
--and he leans himself right back to ground with a pained sigh, flopping an arm over his eyes.]
...I'm sorry you guys got into this mess.
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[LONG EXHALE because this is going to sound selfish--]
Other than yelling at me, I don't know what he was trying to do. Even if I had known you'd be here, I wouldn't know what to ask of you.
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While he could benefit from being a liiiiittle nicer about things, maybe you can try to not completely shut him out. Listen to him, even if it's just a little bit. But be firm with him and don't let him push you around if he tries to do that! Because I know you probably don't want him to be the biggest part of you, either.
Now that he seems a little winded down, maybe you can work on that.
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[A pause, then with a much softer voice:]
That's not something I want, Rook.
Our hearts aren't always right in what they want to do.
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A MOMENT OF FEELING A LITTLE STUPID.]
...
Because "right" and "wrong" aren't just set in stone. They're things that you have to decide for yourself.
That's what you mean.
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I don't think hurt can be avoided, really. Sometimes that's what makes you grow up.
But...
[...
He pauses, before hoisting himself to one knee and attempting to stand, wincing heavily as he does so.]
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[ leaning down to help him up, letting him lean on him. ]