[He sees that, so this is probably going to be bad. But he can't figure out a way around it unless he knows what he's dealing with. Touching it anyway and immediately letting go and tearing off his glove.]
--Shit! ...You know I'd believe you a lot more if it wasn't your own fear always holding you back. You want everything. Friends, to be loved, to have deep and meaningful relationships. But the moment anyone tries to get close to the real you you shut them down. They're supposed to be feelings, not an altar puzzle. Why don't you tell me what's really eating you.
[Looking at the Roxy in front of him steadily. If she knows how to get rid of these ropes a hint would be appreciated though he is having the bad feeling he already knows how and it blows.]
[Roxy trembles and she shakes her head. She doesn't know, she can't do it, so many things that could be for.]
She tried, you know. She's been trying really, really hard. [There is a thickness to the Shadow's voice.] Trying to do what you said. Trying to trust, to say more and force herself.
It's easier when people push. She doesn't stop. Falters, but she can keep going. Talks in circles and goes in tangents, but if people are patient, she'll get to the point. Heh, even Belt noticed it.
You're probably the first one she tried to ask for help. She's so scared, you know.
[Roxy's eyes widen and she tries yelling through the gag, looking at the Shadow with depserate, pleading eyes.]
Even if you figured out her feelings, you left a pretty deep wound in her heart when you walked away from her. She's still not sure if you just deduced it or if you actually heard her then.
...You really like to make it hard on me don't ya.
[Patting her cheek, careful of the strings, before turning around and looking at dark Roxy.]
You want to know how I knew? Because every issue you have I have too. If you think I'm standing here because I'm just a loudmouthed asshole you haven't been watching me enough; I put the definition on messed up. But I'm here because you've asked me to be here from day one:
Before you even knew that's what you were asking. You never have been particularly subtle.
She just doesn't want to see the ugly things. [And yeah, dark Roxy is crying, looking very bitter.] You say don't be manipulative, while you do the say. You say it's all about trust, but you always say trust me when you're about to do something that hurts. Ask and demand things that you won't do.
Be honest, while you lie.
She hurts herself, makes herself vulnerable to you, but everytime she makes progress, you throw it in her face.
And yet you're the one who gives the most of an actual shit about her.
[This is the wrong time to look amused. But he looks so amused.]
But you wouldn't yell at me. Or hate me. Even when I told you to not bother having a shred of respect for me, you wouldn't. Almost like you were afraid if you did I'd go away and not come back.
[Okay, okay, not looking so amused any more.]
If you want me to tell the truth it's really pissed me off. I told you right from the start don't lie to me. ...But it's not lying if you don't admit it to yourself, right? At first I couldn't tell if you just thought I was stupid or you really believed the things you said.
[She laughs.] Of course she believes it. No, no, Roxy does not say things that are false. She'll talk around the truth, redirect, exaggerate or undersell.
I'm sad to say I was incredibly slow on that one. It was so obvious right from the start. [...] But I let my love for my sister blind me to what was right in front of me all along. That's not the case anymore.
[Stepping to the side, no longer hiding Roxy from dark Roxy.]
She'll just punch me in the face if I do that. Wanted to the moment I started talking. It's why I gagged her, she kept talking and talking and talking to deceive herself and ignore me.
...A cute young lady who needs someone better put together than me. I'm working on that. [...] If you haven't realized I've been taking my shards for you all along trying to find a me that isn't too screwed up to help you, you're an idiot.
I won't let her hit you. Are you really expecting to solve anything making a porno scene out of this?
Stop making stupid jokes! Do you think this is a joke?! I think I'm owed being pissed at you!
How many times have you been cruel to her because she wasn't progressing fast enough for you?! Do you know how much it hurts to always blame myself everytime things go badly with you?!
Oh please. You're twisting your feelings. There's wanting to be selfish and then there's this travesty. You want to blame everyone, but you're not even very good at it. Because you don't really want to blame anyone, but yourself still. I don't care anymore. If you want to be a damn wreck? Be a damn wreck. Want to hate yourself? Can't handle the truth? Pissed at me for the rest of forever? Fine.
I'll come get you whether it's at a stupid drinking party, here, your universe or the void. ...But I really would like you to just accept what you are. I'm running out of ways to bullshit my way around watching your back. And yeah I have been trying to set you up with Sparrow because you seriously need to learn how to get close to people and sorry, but I run circles around you in that department. You have any other issues you want to be a creeper at yourself about?
[Looking at Roxy as he says this, dark Roxy can deal okay.]
Are you? Are you really? ...You know this is a game, right.
[The air around dark Roxy turns into cutting blades of wind. Nothing deadly, all shallow-- but it's enough to kick up the ash while Zelos pulls out his knife and throws it in her direction. ...Not. Accurate. Cause he does not have x-ray vision, but whatevs. Looking at normal Roxy!]
Does your tacky curtain have something helpful behind it, blink once for yes, twice for it'll kill me. Or just make a panicked noise if you have no idea.
[Panicked noise, panicked noise, I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT ANYTHING IS AND IT'S TERRIBLE.]
[It's probably concerning that the other Roxy isn't screaming. Might be more concerning when the knife comes rocketing back at him and that's VERY accurate.]
[Well. Shit. Bringing up his scabbard to block that, but he's slow and it ends with a knife in his arm. ...Nice of her to give it back???]
Shiii--t! Do you just have no respect for my clothes or something?! This is high quality cloth!
[He is a douchebag. Pulling out the knife and pressing the palm of his hand to the wound. He's pretty sure this is supposed to end in either, good end: Roxy accepts herself. Bad end: he dies horribly. But hell if he's giving Nyssa his suffering.]
You might as well just pull out your void tricks now. Robin, are you still freaking out?
Let's be honest: you want a reason not to walk out into the void. I can give you a thousand. I can make you every promise under the sun. Hell, if you wanted I could go back to your universe with you once you get it back.
But this isn't about me. It's about you. And unless you're willing to fess up and accept every part of yourself whatever I say isn't going to matter. But you were right about something--I am a hypocrite. Only me and people I approve are allowed to make you face your feelings. ...Nyssa can fuck off.
So. I want to take Roxy home. Which way are we going to do this?
Maybe. She can deal with you in her own time on her own terms though. It's not going to be perfect, but that's fine.
She has Ratatoskr. And she has her friends. You still didn't answer my question-- are you going to let her go or are we going to make a melodramatic brawl out of this?
...Because her nature is to do things for others. And coming to terms with herself is something Ratatoskr needs her to do.
[Well if they are back to this he is just going to look his wound over and heal himself, he is kind of bleeding all over and it is just a bit of a bitch.]
Reyson's asked it of her. Ruby's asked it of her. I'm selfishly demanding it. She can't really escape what she is. Is that enough for you or do you want her to swear it in blood or something?
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--Shit! ...You know I'd believe you a lot more if it wasn't your own fear always holding you back. You want everything. Friends, to be loved, to have deep and meaningful relationships. But the moment anyone tries to get close to the real you you shut them down. They're supposed to be feelings, not an altar puzzle. Why don't you tell me what's really eating you.
[Looking at the Roxy in front of him steadily. If she knows how to get rid of these ropes a hint would be appreciated though he is having the bad feeling he already knows how and it blows.]
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She tried, you know. She's been trying really, really hard. [There is a thickness to the Shadow's voice.] Trying to do what you said. Trying to trust, to say more and force herself.
It's easier when people push. She doesn't stop. Falters, but she can keep going. Talks in circles and goes in tangents, but if people are patient, she'll get to the point. Heh, even Belt noticed it.
You're probably the first one she tried to ask for help. She's so scared, you know.
[Roxy's eyes widen and she tries yelling through the gag, looking at the Shadow with depserate, pleading eyes.]
Even if you figured out her feelings, you left a pretty deep wound in her heart when you walked away from her. She's still not sure if you just deduced it or if you actually heard her then.
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...You really like to make it hard on me don't ya.
[Patting her cheek, careful of the strings, before turning around and looking at dark Roxy.]
You want to know how I knew? Because every issue you have I have too. If you think I'm standing here because I'm just a loudmouthed asshole you haven't been watching me enough; I put the definition on messed up. But I'm here because you've asked me to be here from day one:
Before you even knew that's what you were asking. You never have been particularly subtle.
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She just doesn't want to see the ugly things. [And yeah, dark Roxy is crying, looking very bitter.] You say don't be manipulative, while you do the say. You say it's all about trust, but you always say trust me when you're about to do something that hurts. Ask and demand things that you won't do.
Be honest, while you lie.
She hurts herself, makes herself vulnerable to you, but everytime she makes progress, you throw it in her face.
And yet you're the one who gives the most of an actual shit about her.
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But you wouldn't yell at me. Or hate me. Even when I told you to not bother having a shred of respect for me, you wouldn't. Almost like you were afraid if you did I'd go away and not come back.
[Okay, okay, not looking so amused any more.]
If you want me to tell the truth it's really pissed me off. I told you right from the start don't lie to me. ...But it's not lying if you don't admit it to yourself, right? At first I couldn't tell if you just thought I was stupid or you really believed the things you said.
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But say something completely not true?
Never.
Unless it's to herself.
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[Stepping to the side, no longer hiding Roxy from dark Roxy.]
Untie Robin.
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What do you see?
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I won't let her hit you. Are you really expecting to solve anything making a porno scene out of this?
[HE IS JUST SAYING...]
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How many times have you been cruel to her because she wasn't progressing fast enough for you?! Do you know how much it hurts to always blame myself everytime things go badly with you?!
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She knows what I want from her. You do too.
Asked her to depend on you and walked away, she had to do SOMETHING. So she did what she always did.
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I'll come get you whether it's at a stupid drinking party, here, your universe or the void. ...But I really would like you to just accept what you are. I'm running out of ways to bullshit my way around watching your back. And yeah I have been trying to set you up with Sparrow because you seriously need to learn how to get close to people and sorry, but I run circles around you in that department. You have any other issues you want to be a creeper at yourself about?
[Looking at Roxy as he says this, dark Roxy can deal okay.]
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Of course she can't blame others. It's not how she's wired. Always depending on herself and it's not like life changed it!
She's the kind of person who thinks she can always fall back on her friends.
And now she can't.
You're the best she's got and isn't that just pathetic?
[Roxy looks at the Shadow and Zelos and shakes her head. No, no it's not!]
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You know, normally I'd agree with you, but... I'm going to admit I haven't been honest. I did find a me who can actually help you.
[A white circle appears around his feet.]
I just didn't want you taking it the wrong way. Yo, are you going to let Robin go or what?
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Can't let go someone I'm a part of.
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[The air around dark Roxy turns into cutting blades of wind. Nothing deadly, all shallow-- but it's enough to kick up the ash while Zelos pulls out his knife and throws it in her direction. ...Not. Accurate. Cause he does not have x-ray vision, but whatevs. Looking at normal Roxy!]
Does your tacky curtain have something helpful behind it, blink once for yes, twice for it'll kill me. Or just make a panicked noise if you have no idea.
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[It's probably concerning that the other Roxy isn't screaming. Might be more concerning when the knife comes rocketing back at him and that's VERY accurate.]
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Shiii--t! Do you just have no respect for my clothes or something?! This is high quality cloth!
[He is a douchebag. Pulling out the knife and pressing the palm of his hand to the wound. He's pretty sure this is supposed to end in either, good end: Roxy accepts herself. Bad end: he dies horribly. But hell if he's giving Nyssa his suffering.]
You might as well just pull out your void tricks now. Robin, are you still freaking out?
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[As the dust settles, there's the other Roxy. There's wounds, bleeding bright red blood, but she just looks....dead.]
So. That's how you're going to deal with me?
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But this isn't about me. It's about you. And unless you're willing to fess up and accept every part of yourself whatever I say isn't going to matter. But you were right about something--I am a hypocrite. Only me and people I approve are allowed to make you face your feelings. ...Nyssa can fuck off.
So. I want to take Roxy home. Which way are we going to do this?
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And of course she isn't willing. I wouldn't be here otherwise.
[Roxy is...still at the word though. Her hands twitch up, as if to reach for something on her person.]
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She has Ratatoskr. And she has her friends. You still didn't answer my question-- are you going to let her go or are we going to make a melodramatic brawl out of this?
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[Well if they are back to this he is just going to look his wound over and heal himself, he is kind of bleeding all over and it is just a bit of a bitch.]
Reyson's asked it of her. Ruby's asked it of her. I'm selfishly demanding it. She can't really escape what she is. Is that enough for you or do you want her to swear it in blood or something?
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